Well today i decided i want to stop totally.I have been sorta trying for the longest time but now i know i can't take it anymore. My depression/cutting is ruining my life and i don't want it to do that anymore.I have been doing this for about five years so its not going to be like i can stop right away but i want to try.In the last year the more presure i got on people trying to make me quit the worse i got.I just don't know.I have lost too many friends over this and so many people(mostly teachers)have looked so highly on me but when they found out acted like i could get no worse.I know some of it has to do with the situation i live in but i want to truly try.I can't stand being like this anymore.I just wish i knew exactly how i could do this sucessfully.I just don't know.T_T
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