im so depressed. im sick of it. im just giving up. last night i cut myself for the first time in like a year. now i want to go smoke pot..i dont care if ive been clean for 3 years. it doesnt even matter anymore. i want to get so high that i cant feel any more pain. what the hell is wrong with me? im starting to lose all my faith in god. if he loves everyone then why does he make people suffer? i dont understand the world. im not doing it any good so if i died wouldnt it just help the world...i mean its over populated anyway. i care about things that go on in other countries and i dont want anyone to suffer except for me. i look for ways to depress me. im fucked up in the head. if this is such a fucken great world why are people starving, being abused, and dying. theres nothing i can do about it so why do i even bother. whatever im just typing random shit. the overall point is my life isnt worth living.
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