I just joined this website desperately hoping to relate to other teenagers like me. I was diagnosed with clinical depression almost three years ago. Although, when I was ten years old I started feeling different. I am going into my junior year with almost no friends at all. Well, I have a few friends but none of them make an effort to reach out to me. My boyfriend of five months doesn't even understand the way depression is slowly but surely taking over. My freshman year wasn't the worst but my sophomore year was. My depression began to take over my social life. I was never invited to sleepovers or the movies. No one even texted me or asked whats up. I began to just isolate myself and convincing everyone around me that I enjoy being alone. Internet research has helped me realize it is a real problem called social phobia. My boyfriend, parents, and very few other people know that I have cut a few times. But my thoughts of suicide have become much greater than the desire to cut. The first time I actually tried my parents did not take me seriously. My boyfriend became freaked out and my friends just slowly shut me out all together. I just want someone to take me seriously. I cant spend my summer waking up at three everyday and waiting for the phone to ring, because it wont.
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