I have been on meds for depression and anxiety and i finally found these two after a couple months trying to find the right one. I have had nohorrible or weird thougts for half a year now. But today I see how my sister is growing up (shes younger than me a spophmore and im a senior)and i realize that never happened to me. All throughout highschool, i realize now, i have been the same. Never been asked out, never heard of anyone liking me etc am i that ugly or have such a dull personality? Are looks all that really matter in HS in order to find a suitable man? I just at this moment have given up hope in things changing for the better, like I have been waiting for. Im not saying i want a boyfriend, its just that i want someone to be close to and i feel i havent found that. Why am i still alive?Will i ever feel better and stay that way instead of diving into a black whole of depression?
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