Just cant seem to say Goodbye

As time goes by,
Days go by,
But not one without a thought of you,
And still not one where I can accept your not standing by my side.

I still wait for you in the mornings,
I still wait for you at night,
And I still wait to hear you say everythings gonna b alright.

I know deep down I gotta accept your no longer here in this world,
But ur still in my heart,
Fore as we said Friends forever,
And that will always still hold true
Fore as one day I will be back with you.

I miss the most your laugh,
Your jokes,
Your smile,
Your comfort,
Your hugs,
And knowing no matter what you were always there.
You still are there but not how it should be,
You should be here to continue laughing,
Joking,
Comforting,
And giving out hugs.

Life took you away way to soon,
N its not fair,
I will always search for a reason,
But the answer will never be there.
I still cant get that morning out of my head,
Nearly 2 months later and I remember exactly what was said.
There was a fire

Lifes always had its ups and downs,
Its joys and wonders,
Its hurts and tears,
But no matter what its always had you here,
And it shall continue because I will never let you outta my heart.
Some say its time to move on,
Others say to just let go,
I cant though,
Youre apart of me,
Your in my heart and soul,
Our blood, sweat and tears have all ran together over the years.

The times we laughed so hard I thought id wet my pants,
The times we cried so hard I thought my head would split,
The times we just talked and thought we had it all planned,
The times I freaked over nothing and you laughed as u calmed me down,
The times we blared the music way to loud,
The times we argued of pointless things,
The times I got you to shop with me,
And all the other times in between,
These are all the times that meant the world to me,
Never will I forget these times,
As they are apart of me,
Just as you are.

I miss you more than any words can say,
I dont know what to do without you everyday,
I want you to know how much you mean to me,
You made me, me,
I am a better person because of you.

I will never forget our memories,
We had your lifetime full of them,
Your still always in my heart,
Your in every decision I make,
Every chance I choose to take,

Lifes so different now,
It seems I only miss you more and more as time goes by,
No feelings are getting better like they say it will,
Times not healing or helping,
I miss how things were,
With you and me.

I promise though to always remember you,
I promise to always hold our memories dear,
And I promise to use what you have taught me to make me a better person.

I love you Austin,
You truly were one of a kind.
Thank you for everything.

I hope you can wait for me now,
Wait wherever you may be,
Because I will follow in my time,
And its then we will be together again,

So now I say to you now no Goodbyes,
But only see you laters,
Fore we will in time