I've expiramented recently with ctting myself and.... well i 4got 2 were a sweater or braclets 2 school and like 5 ppl in my tech-ed class found out... and this one kid whenever he c's me he'll try 2 convince every1 else im emo... i especially dont want my friends 2 know and on the bus he kept on trying 2 get one of my bff's kayla 2 check my wrist but she knew that i had a rivalry with him so she wasn't gonna bother... so there goes my school life b-cuz nathan jackson EVIL EVIL **************#*@#$&*@ who goes 2 my school and church and rides my bus! who is also a huge gossip will find out about it 2marrow most likely unless i can get ben 2 shut up and then he'kk go and tell evry1 at church :'( im crying just thinking about the torture CHURCH tha place i LUV will b and im pretty sure that eventually every1 at school will no and my mom will no soon and i wont know how 2 handle it and ill probly start crying and i wont go 2 the counslers office because i have this unsexplainable phobia that my life mill mess up more if i try 2 get help....... and than my ENTIRE LIFE will go WWWWAAAAAAA SQUASH BAM BOOM!!!!!!!!!!! and get destroyed and everyone will b watching me so i'll try 2 kill myself, but it wont work and i'll end up in re-hab and........... PLEASE PLEASE!!!!! help me... and if u've had a previos good experience with a counsler please tell me so i'll try harder 2 go.!.!.!.!
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