My bestfriend's name was Mark Johnson. He was only 14 years old. I loved him dearly. People all around me that barely knew him, or didn't know him at all are playing like they were best buds for years when really they aren't. Mark hung himself exactly one week ago today. The nest day there was a kid who was going around saying he should have shot himself. He also was going around pretending to choke himself in front of all of Marks friends. Then there was a girl named Crystal. She was his girlfriend until the night he died. Because right before he did it she told him that she didn't cared if he died because she would piss on his grave. But now she's acting like nothing happend and she was still going out with him when he commited suicide. And she showedup at his wake sayin gstuff right in front of him. I don't know what to do with myself because I keep thinking I can call him up and tell him to come over, but I can't. He was also my ex-boyfriend. I'm suprised we were still friends, but I think that just brought us closer. Does anyone have any advice for me during this time?
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