When it came down to it my depression turned me into a monster. dealing with my mothers cancer, and a father in denial, never felt like such a nuclear bomb of hell exploding all over me,well egleast not untill i started ruining things for me and my "FRIENDS". We're teenagers not full grown afults how are we supposed to kno when enough is enough! every day is like getting drunk for the first time. its all a blurr and a black out. I lied to mny best friends just so they would think i was fine, i lied to get out of drama, and i lied to keep something very important away from my best friend. Sometimes i wonder if i was ever meant to be here, but then i wonder what would happen to my friends if i just left. My best friend od'd and then transferred schools, and i feel so alone. How am i supposed to stop my depression, when i can't even stop myself?
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