Hello , Ive been hurting for so long and nothing seems to help. I was hospitalized last year for my 3rd suicide attempt. Things seemed to be looking up for awhile put me on some medication. It was helping for a bit havnt cut myself in 6months but the meds dont seem to be working anymore. It feels like the pull over this fake happyness. all they do is hide the hurt inside. Ive started drinking and heavyly using drugs again. I'm a senior in highschool but Im not gonna pass this year, nor will I for the next 1-2 years. Im failing again I havnt been to classes in months because I cant get up in the morning. By the time I do wake up I start making myself a drink and ill smoke some weed or snort a little bit of heroin. Its the only thing that helps anymore. I just want the hurt to go away or Im afried the next time I attempt suicide im going to succeed.
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