For the past couple of years, I lived with my grandma just for the fact that all the way through my freshman year and partly my sophomore year, I got into trouble. Not with the police but I was always out drinking with friends which always led to a fight with my mom or stepdad. So, my mom got sick of it and decided to finally let me move back with my grandma. I was finally happy there. I had the rest of my family and it seemed as if it was the cure to my depression. Well after a while (up to this past summer) I started getting to the point where it was hard to call my actual mom, mom. Which is why I decided to move back with my mom for my senior year. It started out great and everything but lately things are going down hill. Im not drinking or anything or starting a fight but this time i feel its my mom. Lately its like she is completely addicted to the computer and she rarely spends time with me as in watching a movie or something. she will watch the first 10 minutes but then she gets up to speak with other people online. I also have a feeling she is cheating on my stepdad because she is talking to all these guys and getting dulled up to have me take her picture to put on her yahoo. She never really cared about that kind of thing before up until she met a couple of guys online. Lately I wish that somehow I would be sent back to Minnesota to live with my grandma because she always spent time with me. I never really felt unwanted out there like I do now. I feel like I lost my mom but then again I dont know if its just the clinical depression acting up. For instance earlier today I bought the movie Shrek 3 and I started watching it and she finally started watching it. away from the computer finally. but then she just had to get back on the computer and talk to people just completely ignoring me. So, of course I had to watch it alone. I dont remember a time we watched a movie without her falling asleep or hopping on the computer. Ive gotten to the point where I dont remember what happy is. What should I do?
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