I'm told by my true friends that I'm not worthless and they tell me other good things. But that voice in my head just wont go away. You can say that this voice did exist meaning he was a person, but even though I haven't seen him for so long, he's still there tormenting me. He still gives me good reasons letting me know how worthless I am. He keeps telling me things like the people I hang with are tired of me and don't want nothing to do with me and that their gonna leave me too one day like all the others. He blames me for the loved ones that I've lost and tells me that it's all my fault that their gone. I've been fighting it so far, but right now I'm tired and weak and can't fight it anymore that I'm beginning to belive him again. Every time I see someone in pain, he tells me it's my fault. I wanna hurt myself so bad but I can't because of the promis that I made to one of my true best friends.I can't sleep and when I do I wake up early from a bad dream and can't go back to sleep. When I hang out with the others, they think that theres nothing wrong with me. They continue to say mean and hurtful things to me, but again, I just laught with them and once I'm alone, I cry silently to myself. I don't even fight back taht much anymore when I get attacked. This is what I desirve and if I can't hurt myself, then I might as well let someone els hurt me weather if it's phisacly or meantaly. This is my punishment for the pains that I've brought on others. And to those that are reading this who knows me, I'm sorry for hurting you.
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