I have been dating my new boyfriend now for 3 months, and so far I can't say it's the worst but I can't say it's the best either. I feel over all, it's more... "neutral". I have been single and/or going through a nightmare dating life for a year and 7 months before I finally met him. I'm thankful I did. He's down to earth, considerate, respectful, quiet and just very laid back but knows how to have fun and has a good sense of humor at the same time. We're about the same age, which is definitely a learning experience for me cause I've always dated older guys or girls. But the thing is, things are too perfect for us and sometimes I feel incredibly uncomfortable about it. How is for 1, my mom ADORES him. She lets me do things with him that I have never been able to do with any of my boyfriends, and it scares the living crapola out of me. She apparently reminds her of my uncle, her brother, when he was my boyfriends age and that brother is her favorite, so that's how that works. I feel like, how will she react if I want to break up with him? The other thing is, his family is strict and religious and portugese and I've already met a lot of his family at family gatherings awwwing over us and all that and I wasn't ready to be apart of anything personal, only because at that time we only dated for 2 months. Another one is, sometimes I just question myself because he has good qualities and he is a great guy, but first date we lusted like no tomorrow because we were single for so long, even almost slipped saying "I love you", and I'm not too happy about that, though we're past that problem. The thing over all is, he's my type, but he's not my type, and I don't picture being with him forever and I feel like everyone around me is making a big deal out of it and I don't know what to do. I don't want to break up with him, but I want to enjoy the relationship and keep it neutral. I don't want it too deep, at least not yet. I want to get to know him more and let time take it's course, but it's been kind of hard to. He left for portugal for 2 weeks and I feel incredibly guilty that apart of me felt like it was a relief that he was gone cause of the chaos being with him has caused. I'm also highly jealous of a lot of my friends because they are all in a pretty great relationship, and in a way though this boyfriend is promising in it's own ways, sometimes I feel like I can do better. What can I do to better my situation? Sorry this passage was so long!
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