i know you love talking to your best friend and you can talk to her about anything, but have you ever considerd therapy, even group therapy. from what i read, you said your best friend is going through what you are going through, and you said you cut, in away its like the blind leading the blind, you should try talking to someone professional. I know you have a hard time talking to your mom about it, but just say, "mom, i need professional help" she'll understand. Im here if you need to talk also! Keep strong!

yeah i did get help, but it didnt help me it just made me feel better for a little while and then i just went down again. shes bringing me back into the phyciatrist or whatever again but i find it really hard to talk to her or a professional because i dont even know what to say exactly, i cant explain it, i dont even get it mot of the time. maybe it will be good to go to the professional again, ill be finding out soon enough

Hey Cassie,It really saddens me to see 14yr old teens with the problems of the world upon their shoulders.I'm a firm believer that the media and sometimes schools dont help in the pressures on young teens these days.These are the young years, where life should be happy and trouble free. Im not from the usa but as an outsider I've seen people living their lives at a rapid pace, not being able to find enough to fill their days it seems. The Mothers put little billy (i.e)into every after school activity known to man, then mom has to finish work, take little Billy to his soccer game, when that ends he goes somewhere else, then mum has to fly home and cook dinner, hopefully the family at some point make eye contact, maybe split seconds but hey!anything is better than nothing right :-).
All this said, can you see the point Im making ? teens are growing up in a fast paced crazy world these days, the parents are working to feed the kids, the kids are suffering because the parents simply have no time for them.
Everybody is under immense pressure all the time.And we wonder why the depression??
Ive spoken with profesionals about cutting, and SI, but you know what it comes down to the same thing, cutting,depression,suicide etc..its all controlled by one simple organ isnt it ??
Thats right, its your brain.
The brain is as you know a very complex piece of machinary,it along with hormones control our every move.You can make yourself very sick if you concentrate on it enough, you can make your self extremely happy if you think good thoughts.
People die using the brain alone did you know that ?My grandmother died a few years ago, she and my grandfather were married for 40yrs.
Six months after she died, my Grandfather died too, he died of very simple complication, he died from a Mentally induced broken heart.The doctor said he had grieved so hard, and concentrated so fully on what her loss meant to him, that his heart just finally gave out.So you see, we are all in control of our own destinys hon, you can go to doctors, therapists,councilors, you can take drugs , but when all said and done,if you're not going to tune that brain in and give your body hope, then Im afraid your wasting your time, the strengh to not abuse yourself, and to be happy has to come from within hon.People are here to help make that happen, dont cut hon, dont punish and make scars on that body, find someone to talk to hear, Im always available at different times throughout the day, just leave me a message. Your not alone here okies "wink" )))))))))))) x

Hey there :)
I'm not exactly sure on what it is you're going through. But I do know that there is much more to do than cutting yourself. That's silly. Cassie, I don't know you but, I do know that I'm almost 100% positive that you're a lot smarter than that! If you ever need to talk, I'm here.
-J

i know its silly... bnut i felt like i wanted to control something of my life, but now i hate that i have scars :(

Scars arnt something to be ashamed of, I have many from issues along the same lines... they're just another thing to remind you of the place you don't want to go back to. Keep that in mind that you don't want to be in that state everytime you look at them and don't be angry, or saddened by them.
Also remember, you'll get through anything you put your mind to.

It's good that you have you best friend. That's a connection, and connections ar e what keep us here. I know how you feel, sometimes parents just don't understand, and it's hard to put everyhting into words. Hope you're okay.

thanks for the replies so much, it really helps to know im not the only one going through this type of stuff and that people understand.. :)

Hey babe. Totally know what you mean about feeling sad and not knowing why. For me I've been sad deep down for the past three years but it's just starting to come to the surface. So much stuff is going on in my stupid life that it's hard to pick just one thing that is making me upset. That might be a little different than what you are feeling. I just started talking my school counsoler this school year. She just told me she thinks i should see someone that is better on what i'm going through. It has to do with my adoption. Oh yea did i forget to mention that my mom has no idea i feel this way. So at least your mom knows. I've been hidding my feelings from my parents for oh just three years. Yea when they find out the S*** is going to hit the fan. lol i'm here for you though babe. Let me know if i can help, i'm pretty good at listening and i need another person around my age that is feeling pain similar to mine. I feel so alone on what i'm feeling. Sorry that i'm babbleing! lol ;)

Sorry i didn't really add advice! xxx =)

it can be really really hard to talk to adults because you think that they wont understand. i used to cut...a lot. when my mom first found out she asked me "what was etched into my arm". it was scary and i thought that she was being heartless when really she was just worryed. parents freak out because they are scared that you are in trouble and they wont be able to help you. just keep trying to talk to her and make sure that your best friend isnt the only person you are talking to. if she is going through the same thing you are then she isnt really in a great place to give you help. really try to find support other places as well. even if its music or art. anything that distracts you can help.