I need to get help. This is a fact. Depression runs in my family and I've tried to end it too many times. I have 9 out of 10 symptoms for depression. I decided to talk to my school counselor tomorrow. I have to many "bad" thoughts. Sometimes I want help but for the most part I just want to give up. I hate the feelings I have, it makes me hate myself. I no longer want to live. I've thought about it to long. I don't know what to do. I don't want people to blame themselves. I would never want that. I hate feeling like I'm the source of pain. I couldn't imagine my loved ones thinking they could of done something to save me. I need to make my decisions. I decided to get help. If I don't soon I fear my family will blame themselves for what I've known would come for a long time. Daniel, well he'd never stop blaming himself and I love him even if he doesn't want anything to do with me.
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