I can not take this anymore...im feeling depressed and wanting to cut....always....im trying to cope with my problem but im afraid because i know deep down i dont want to stop cutting...i dont like getting up every morning an dseeing those cuts on my arms......i hate feeling this way...my best friends wont even talk to me....anymore..i feel so alone... i have tried talking to her but she is still mad...i dont blam her...i just cant take feeling this way...i always im going to stop but it is easier for me to say it then do it.....i just want everything back to the way it was when i never had to worry about cutting myself....is that to much to ask???
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