Today is a bad day, like any other i guess. I dont think it is for any perticular reason either. I just fell like i cant take it any more. Twice now i have gone into the bathroom just looking longingly at those bottles of pills. I almost did it too. i had the loose pills in my hand and was about to down them. I am too much of a coward to follow through with it though. I want my life to end, i just dont think i could do it myself. Maybe i could grab a gun and shot at a cop or something. I definatly wouldnt have the courage to do that, plus i would be afraid of hurting them. I dont want to physically hurt anyone on my way out. I dont know what to do with myself anymore. If i ever get the courage tonight, which i doubt, but if i do, i thank you to all the people on here that have supported me. I love you all, It is just getting too hard for me.
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