I feel really hopeless right now. I've always been a loner, and weakling as a kid, but since I got into high school, I had some bad experiences. What I worry about now is my life, my family, my friends, and my future. Though, the greatest pain I feel is regret right now. Regret has made me unable to focus and always tired. Today, my breakfast didn't taste as good. I had to take a nap in the middle of the day. I feel messed up because i am worrying my mother and I hate seeing her worried and sad. I want her to be happy, but I am not happy myself. I barely have anybody to talk to and some of them are enjoying life which make me feel even worse. I want to go back to when I was a kid and start life over again, and maybe then I will feel better. However, I know going back is impossible. A high schooler like me is supposed to be enjoying life and going out with friends, and working hard. But right now, my life isn't that. My life was almost never that.
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