how to i tell my mom who has raised me the best she can that i dont feel like getting up in the morning anymore, that at least once a day i think to myself how much easier would everything be if i just disappeared, things have been like this since i was 16, i havent told anyone that ive ever felt this way or have had thoughts of suicide till now. I hate always feeling like there is nothing to live for. Ive been in and out of love but never have been truly happy. Im tired of not being happy. How do i tell the people in my life, the ones who count on me the most for everything, that i am not as strong as they think i am?
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