I get sad alot just at random... I have reason... but im more sad about them than I should be, I feel like theres other things making me sad but I dont know what they are. I just get really sad for some reason and when I get sad it feels impossible to get happy again, unless something really good happens I just cant make myself happy. Its like im to stubborn to be happy and when people ask me to cheer up it just seems like another reason not to, like I dont always have to do what they say, its like really bad stubborness. I am starting to anger people, because I wont tell them whats wrong I guess and when I say I dont know they dont believe me. I am so tired of being sad that I feel like, emotionally numb? and now I am starting to just get mad all the time instead of sad. I think I have developed anger problems or something. I am really bad for blaming myself for everything that goes wrong and how I fucked up. I dont get along with my best friend as good anymore, we get into an argument like everyday. My life feels like pointless and im stuck in an emotional routine I cant break.
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