well today i had what i would call a breakdown. i find that i often hide my emotions i havent had a breakdown in a month but my breakdowns are just me crying alone till i feel better. i just let it out and i know that for some people this is a daily routine but for me this is not normal. i can say that depression has been an on again off again thing with me since i was in elementary. i have a loving boyfriend who at this point is the only one thats there for me. my other friends have i feel just ditched me here it is the summer before my senior year and i have not one friend who i can rely on it really just deepens my depression more. im so tired of this and i really dont want to feel like this anymore. in 17 days i will 18 get my drivers license and finally be able to drive my car and work. i feel this whole summer ive done nothing i dont go out except for sundays with my boyfriend and no one calls me but him. nobody cares about me but him i feel if i was to die tomorrow no one would care but him. im sorry im venting everything but i just need to get this out of my system. please feel free to leave opinions
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