so the other night i was at work doing the overnight shift, its from 10pm-5:30am. well this night i was very sad, but not too bad. i suddenly had the urge to cut... but i've never really broken skin to where i was bleeding, even slightly.. well i kinda just cut, i needed it, wanted it.. and i couldnt help myself.. next thing i knew i had little beads of blood on my wrist.. i was both thrilled and scared... i dont know what that means.. i shouldnt be happy about it but i am.. i dont know if its a sign that i should get some help or that i'm just plain stupid.. ????????
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