For tooo long now i have just felt so helpless and trapped. Im so stressed from school, i hate me, and its all just bearing down on me. I feel like im going no where in life, everyone is good at SOMETHING besides me. I have no purpose at all. I feel like im going to be a lone the rest of my life, im shy and i have no self esteem what so ever, i hate how i look, im so uncomfortable with myself that i cry every single night. Everything has been going downhill and im scared its just going to come to an end soon. I have suicidal thoughts all the time. I dont think i could ever committ suicide, but that doesnt stop me from hoping i will die everyday..its pathetic i know but its really how i feel. Im scared of the future, and i hate everything right now. I just dont know what to do anymore :( No one understands how i feel. My parents think its just a phase, and my friends are too self centered to notice anythings wrong with me. I know this isnt a phase. I have to much hate for myself for this to just be a phase. Im just so confused :(
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