Well, I feel depressed right now. Normally I would say stuff about darkness or light but not too many people understand. Anyway, I've been thinking a lot about things. One big thought was about me being here. I keep asking myself if I belong here. I feel accepted by everyone but it just doesn't feel like it's enough, you know? I mean being a hero to everyone is one reason why I'm still here but there are also other people who can fit that role as well. Doing what I do takes a lot of energy but it really isn't too hard. Rambling...sorry guys. I know there are other reasons why my friends want me here because they've said them almost all the time, lol. But I don't feel like I fit in here on DS or even on Earth for that matter. It's like I have so many questions in my head and no matter where I go, I'll never find the answers for them. There's that and the fact that I get this weird feeling like...I shouldn't be here. I just feel like I shouldn't be with my family, my friends, or with even strange people. Maybe I was supposed to die a long time ago, or maybe never was supposed to be born at all. There were several times when I was younger where I should have died but I still lived. I don't even know why that is. My life isn't all that bad but it isn't too good either. I guess right now, everything that's happened to me is hitting me hard. I keep thinking about what's gonna happen after I'm done writing this. I don't know if everyone who replies will be enough to help me or if this will even pass by. This always happens to me but I guess that's my depression. I just wish I didn't have so many questions running through my head right now. I also wish I could finally fit in for once in my life. But I guess that may never happen.
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