i am having boyfriend issues. to make a long story short i love him more than he loves me. i put in more of my heart than him. and today he totally blew me off. it ruined my whole day. during school i couldent think about anything else but how im digging myself in this hole for someone that might not even care about me like i do about him. I want to talk to my friends about it but i dont want them to think i want to talk about me all the time so i just dont bring it up. i go home and i just cry in my room. everybody thinks im this funny, happy girl whose life is going great but in reality i cry myself to sleep, my mom has cancer, my brother has down syndrome and i have to deal with people making fun of him. whenever i stand up to him they call me a loser. I want to know what would happen if i ran away. if i didnt live anymore. if everything would be better. if everything would be like it should be. if my mom would be happier knowing that she dosent have to take care of me. if my friends would be happier knowing that i wouldent be nagging them with my hopeless love stories, if my boyfriend would be happier knowing that i wouldent be asking him everyday if he still likes me.
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