A couple of years ago I was diagnosed with depression, I've never really been one for talking about things so there was alot of stuff people didnt know, everyone thinks I got over it but to be honest I just got better at hiding it and now for the past few months I have been feeling so down, I've been cutting myself, crying myself to sleep everynight. My relationship with my friends is falling apart, they feel like they cant do or say certain things around me because I'll get upset and I know I do, I get upset at the slightest little thing and then it makes me want to not live anymore. I am also a very angry person anything will set me off and I get so angry I lash out throwing things and screaming. I am very paranoid I am convinced everyone is out to get me and that they hate me, I dont get close to anyone because I think they will just end up letting me down. Sometimes I go into like some sort of trance and lately I have been turning to drugs. I just dont feel myself, I feel empty, I feel crazy, sometimes I just want to scream and make it stop.
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