What do you do when you feel like you don't belong anywhere? You haven't seen your friends in who knows when, only to re-find them on facebook or myspace. You hope to rebuild any friendships that were damaged but begin to see they have their own friends. You start to think of the people you want to talk to, but that only leads you to think of who they're already friends with. Then that leads you to think that you have nothing in common with these people. The sad reality is that you don't. Not anymore. You think, and think, and think about anything and everything. Soon, you find yourself alone with only your thoughts. But it won't stop there. The biggest though that lingers the most is the thought of where you belong with these people. With me, I've always felt I was different. I was even treated differently from the rest. I never knew why, and I still don't completely know. I am different, because I don't belong with anyone or anything. I could just imagine how everything would turn out if I were never here. Some things that happened would remain the same, because those are the time everyone treated me like I wasn't supposed to be there, or they acted as though I wasn't there. So many lives would be better off without me. I really feel like I wasn't supposed to be born. I know a lot of people say that, but I've had this feeling for as long as I can remember, at least since I was 4. I just barely remember asking my mom "Am I supposed to be here?". It just so strongly feels like the truth to me. I can't really explain it, but it makes sense. I don't fit in, because I'm not supposed to be here. I've sort of grown to accept this. But now, what do I do?
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