Well today has gone from one extream to another...started off ok although i forgot my bus pass...got into college and the teacher pissed me off and i got really cross and started to take it out on the table so my support assistant took me outside to cool down...then i went for break and this guy kept pokin me and i asked him to stop n he didnt n then he kept askin me why i was been so grumpey so i snapped at him n told him to piss off and keep his nose out of my life he knows nothing about me and walked off!! then had another lesson...wasn't so bad apart from i dunno what was going on because i was trying to calm down! then had lunch an 1 of my friend asked me whether i had anorexia and i just laughed it off...liying again...and said no im just not hungry-shes not stupid but i dont want peeps to know!!! my last 2 lessons we hell...they stressed me out and i got really cross and got no work done!! got home and mum was in a foul mood so went and shut my self in my room...tried to do some college work but it was too hard and i didnt get it so i text my friend and asked if she could come and help me but she was at her boy friends which is nothing unusual atm!!! THEN to really put the icing on the cake my friend told me that some one i knew quite well had died suddenly during the night whilst on holiday!!!...WHAT A DAY!!! i think i have felt every negative feeling possible today and now i don't quite know what to do with myself!!!! HELP! i wanna just curl up in a ball until everything gets better!!! :'( *crys*
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