i've tried reaching out to people I swear I have. Loved ones and friends, but they all don't seem to care. they laugh at me and shrug me off. The few people I've found to care about me and geniuenly want to help me have all left. I'm obviously not worth keeping if so many people leave me behind and alone. I dont fully understand whats wrong with me but no one supports me in trying to get better. Right now the only option that looks available is to hurt myself, at least that way I know the source and have control over it. That would be better than this constant ache and not knowing why wouldnt it? I'm so tired of feeling like this. Anyway way out is good enough for me. I'm just so tired of costantly falling apart. I'm moving passed the crying and into anger. I dont know which is worse. Sorry to any one who actually read this, it seems like a waste of time and i'm sorry.
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