I wake up and wonder if I am real and wonder if anyone would really miss me. I dont know that when I touch someone that they feel it. I dont know that when I die that I will live on in a better place or a hellish place. I dont know that if I try to kill myself that I will make it. When I go to school and walk down the street I feel like no one is there. I talk to people but I dont feel alive. If I killed myself what would anything matter because it is just a made up dream that a messed up man is dreaming. I die and he wakes up. I have no one here and I have no reason to really stay here. What will I leave behind? Friends? dont have any Family? would they really notice life? Is that really what this is?
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