I don't know if some people are like this or just me, because I can't ask any of my friends. Nothing in my life feels real anymore. When I look in the mirror I see a stanger. The person I am inside isn't the one looking back at me. It's like living someone elses life. I don't feel things like I did when I was little. I never feel completely happy and when my neighbor died last month I didn't feel sad, not even at his funeral because in my mind he isn't gone. (My family was so close to him we called him grandpa). I haven't laughed so hard i almost cried in over three years. Actually, i realized, i haven't laughed in a really long time. I'll find myself in a middle of a conversation talking and laughing about things i don't mean or even remember. Sometimes i take way more then the recomended dose of advil when i'm bored in the hopes of feeling. Is something wrong with me?
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