I can\'t stand the feeling of being alone in the world,yet, I feel it everyday. I feel as if I do not belong here, that I was a God given mistake. I often pray to God,asking him to make me happy. Yet, I know only I control my destiny. God is there, a strong supporting hand to hold, but only I can control my feelings. But being alone means being empty. Feeling useless and meaningless. I have no friends either. That makes the felling of lonliness so much worse.
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