wats the point of having a birthday party if all thats gonna happen is my friends r gonna party 2gether and break up into there little groups and ditch me and........... and they'll pay attention and care 4 me 4 a very SHORT while and then they'll randomly just stop! and i cant handle that right now..... should i call my party off? and i no that i need 2 go 2 the counsler but im still terrified!!!!!!!!!!!! its so hard! i feel like a prisoner in my whole life... only the ppl on here no the "real me" but 4 the rest of the world... they no nothign about me... even my family? i just dont know wat 2 do anymore!!!!!!!!!!! and i dont want this year 2 end b-cuz once ti does my brother will probly b going 2 war and get himself killed!!!!! i just wish there was a way 2 go back in time 2 make it so that i dont have 2 hide the real me from the world!!!!!!!!!!! im sooo confused!!!!!!
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