I donno where to begin... I just want to end...I have been a source of everyones pain...mom always tells me that I was born bad...she stopped my both siblings from dealing with me since the age of 10... An extreme cult joined me to their lines...I became a nun for 9 years...but still I remained a devil in everyone's eyes... Then I became a real devil... I hated my self...I changed... I fell in love... got ditched... And now I am just crying... I feel like I am the unforgettable sin...everyone can change... But I cant... Every day I have to deal with the names she call me with... I have to deal with my loneliness... cause devils should be left alone... They deserve to feel bad... They deserve everything bad... Logically that cant be true...but who follows logic anyways?... What am I still doing here God? Am I created to be a tool to let anger out on? Is my time near? Are u going to punish me for being such a devil? I am sitting here just helpless... I donno what to do... I am full of mental disabilities thanks to my parents 24/7 fightings... And everyday I am getting weaker...just lost among the crowds... taking my final breathes before drowning for good...
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