My life is so messed up right now! Yesterday, when I forgot my permission note for the field trip, I had to stay at school with all of the bad kids...it was terrible. I was so alone! I feel like I am nothing without my friends...certainly not a force to be reckoned with anymore...Oh and I have recently been labeled emo by some kids at my school. Perhaps it's easier for them to label me like that, but there is such discrimination against "emos" at my school! And Mark (my stepdad who cheated on my mother) keeps trying to be nice to me, but I am finding it so hard to forgive him, even when my mom has. He has not started living with us again. he is such an angry person and I do not think we will let him back permanently until he changes...I feel like I should go to a hospital so I cannot cut myself because I know it hurts my mother...and those damn suicidal thoughts...I don't know what to do!
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