as i write this.. im in tears.. i was diagnosed at 13 with depression.. things have steadily gotten worse.. i was doing better for a few months.. i have just broken up with someone.. he just ignored me.. eventually texted me and said he had found a girlfriend.. that was a few days ago.. im in so much pain right now.. i cant describe how alone i feel.. since i have been depressed.. i have lost everything.. i have no friends.. iv spent the last 2years sitting at home.. now i have lost him.. there is nothing left.. i think about him being happy with her.. wonder what she is like.. wonder how crazy he must be about her.. to be able to feel nothing for me.. the pain is overwhelming.. i feel i am at the end.. i cant keep going.. there is no place for me.. i dont know why im writing this.. iv tried everything else.. why am i in so much pain.. why wont this go away.. i want a life.. i want happiness.. most of all i want him.. and all these things.. are impossible for me to get back.. i have lost him.. and now i am nothing.. im hopeless.. i see no point in living anymore.. i see no future.. all i feel is pain.. its been so long.. and he has been all that has kept me going.. i dont live..i just exist.. i dont know what im asking.. or why im writing this.. i just want to know why.. why is this happening to me.. why am i in this unbareable pain.. why does it never end.. why are there so many others feeling the same.. why do we keep going.. why am i isolated.. why am i here.. why cant i get better.. i know no one can answer this.. so i dont know why i ask..
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