well, this is it. tonight i may just kill myself. i hate my life. i hate everything and everybody. no i dont. yes i do. a little. i hate my mother for making me move here, and when i finally find a place here, making me move back. i hate my dad for not helping me. i hate my sister for abandoning me when i needed her the most. i hate my friends for not caring about me enough to pull me out of this pit. i hate the girl im in love with the most for not loving me back and rubbing her girlfriend in my face. no, thats not right. she didnt do that. but, yes, she did. she didnt mean to, but she did. i hate her. i hate them all. its swallowing me up inside and out. i hate hate. i hate this way i feel. i hate my anger, my sadness. all i want to do is kill something, or someone. i want to fight. i want to tear something to shreds. i want to end my hate forever.
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