we had argued as usual, but the situation remains the same. then in she walks and tells me wot she has just done......taken a lot of tablets...ibuprofen, sertraline and tramadol....i rang her g.p. who said call an ambulance so i rang her mother and told her then rang the ambulance. she was concious and alert so no worries there. the ambulance operator stayed on the phone with me telling us wot to do but after about 20 mins she slipped into unconciousness i laid her on the floor, passed the phone to her sister and checked her over. everything seemed ok...but then it happened i lost her pulse n she wasnt breathing i immediately began checking her airways as i had been taught - her mother was in pieces i was starting to panic then all of a sudden the calm came over me and i stopped thinking bout wot was happening and just followed my training chest compressions breathing for her, after wot seemed like forever i got a weak pulse and then she started to breathe...very shallow but it was there..the ambulance arrived almost 45 mins after i placed the call the operator stayed on the line with us throughout that. they admitted her to hospital luckily she ahdnt done any damage to herself. she saw the psychiatrist and was realeased from hospital that day. as i waited i was sat having a cuppa with her mother and sister we were discussing wot could be done to help when out of the blue her mother says that i should have stayed on the phone and let her sister give her the CPR from what i remember i was only just holding it together let alone her family...so can someone please tell me where i went wrong in doing what i thought was right and saving the life of the woman i love? i've been judged over this accused of it being all my fault and yet im still trying to deal with my own problems and be there for my partner- whose family just dont seem to give a shit except to lay blame on me this includes her 2 children who are part of the cause of helens depression she does everything for them washing cleaning cooking even tho they are 21 and 17 and both working if she cant afford to put food in the cupboard she will get into debt to do so just so she can avoid them moaning and bitching at her they havent helped er at all infact all they have done is moan at her making things worse then whilst im doing things like this she accuses me of talkin dirty to other women when really all im trying to do is to make sense of how i've been left feeling. so i ask again where have i gone wrong and what can i do to make things right for helen????????
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