I am so sad and depressed. Just to sum it up for you...in the past year, I almost lost my mother. Our house was forclosed on. I lost my job before that, due to taking care of my mother. Fired by a new boss that didn't know me. I was on vacation the whole time. Fired on the first day i would not have been paid for. I was out for three weeks. I have had to move 14 hrs. away to live with my mother. My boyfriend of 12 years can't come here. I have been looking for a job, turned down two, and now have gotten a job (where my mother lives) and my boyfriend can't come here, so we are forced to have to break up. I was recently offered a job that would have allowed us to be together, but it didn't pay much money. I think deep down, I am taking this opportunity to start over. I love him so much, but my life with him has been crazy. He has cheated many times. I have been hurt over and over, but love him so much. He has always been so wonderful to my kids and me. I think he has some sexual addiction, but would never admit it. I know what anyone reading this would say, but no matter what has happened, I miss him, and I am terribly sad. It's just hard thinking about how alone I'm going to be. How I will miss him being there for me. He was my rock. No matter what he ever did, I know without a doubt that he loves me. He has begged me to not take this job, but I feel I have to.
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