My husband of 15 years has depression. It started 4 years ago upon returning from military deployment. I got him to go to his doc and he started on anti-depressants, which he stopped taking. He left home on 3 occasions for a few days. After the third time he started seeing a psychiatrist that believes he has bipolar 2 and ADHD. She put him on different meds which has helped with the lows. He still gets very shut off, and finds no joy in life. Except spending money (think $80,000 sports car behind my back). In October he left for 2 months, then begged to come home. He was miserable. Now, 6 weeks later, he's gone again. This time he signed a lease on a luxury apartment. He says he loves me with all his heart, but he's changed, no longer happy, and I deserve better. Yet, he still wants affection and to be around me all the time. It is such a rollercoaster of emotions. Is it the depression, bipolar, or loss of intimate love? So confusing.
So I might just have pregnancy induced hypertension and not preeclampsia but there is no way to know for sure, so MFM has ordered another 24 hour urine collection to see if I have any protein in my urine, and if the numbers are good he is more comfortable holding off on delivery. Keep your fingers crossed and everything else crossed.
Today is not starting off as a good day. Its only 830 in the fucking morning and I am already in tears and angry. I hate that I see so many different Obs and they can't get on the same page and understand what I want. I swear I think they are trying to scare me into delievery for tomorrow! Its not something that I want, but why don't I want it? I am so scared of making the wrong decisions. I...