My partner of 9 years has had a very rough past year. she hit on some really difficult things in therapy, and has dropped into depression. she is angry and ashamed and guilty and mean and snarling and then sweet and crying and apologizing and pleading. she has dropped all her responsibilities and gotten her car reposessed in the last week. she's borrowed money from my family behind my back, she's smoking and lying about it, (we both quit 5 years ago, after i was diagnosed qwith breast cancer) (i'm fine now) she is fighting mean with me over nothing and exploding defensivly lik a teenager at the slightest admission that i'm hurt or angry at her. i think she is totally self destructing and she knows and can't stop. we almost got kicked out of couples therapy this week! that's crazy! she says mean things and stomps all over the house threatening to leave blah, blah, blah, then i spend sometimes hours talking her down and back around to the girl that i know. then she's crying and shaking and so upset that she can't talk and i have to calm her down and talk her through just letting herself cry. i am exhausted! she has therapy 1-2 times a week and is seeing a psychiatrist for medication in a few days. she was on prozac after 2 hospitalizations as a teenager and it helped her through. she was a charming, funny, happy partner and best friend for the first 8 years, and i miss her so much. i know that even after she starts medication it will be a long time before we start to see some improvement. i've never seen anyone like this before and i've no idea if what i'm doing is good or bad for her. i know she's really worried about getting suicidal again and even writing that sentence is almost too terrifying for me. don't know what to do here. help!
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