Reading between the lines is difficult for some. Very emotional.

Very true.

There is an actual hidden message in this poem. I probably should not have written this one, but it is how I feel. :o(

you should always write how you feel, I often write things I don't fully understand, they just come out

i read this one on your journal. i wrote that it took alot of courage. and also i hope you know that we're here for you. if you need to talk.

(((Hugs)))---rae

" my pain has reached it's maturity "
To me hon this says " I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE!! "
Dieing is my only way out....
I don't know if this is your Hidden message BUT,
as a Psychologist who has gone through this crap 29 years..
I tried to end it twice and then
I figured out that all this time, I have been fighting to LIVE!!!
That is when I promised myself, one day I WILL be at the top of this
steep steep mountain and will
hold my arms UP in VICTORY!!!
Until then, Onward Brave Soul...
Hugs
Ravin

I feel silly for acting this way, but I guess we all get desperate sometimes. Anyway, thank you to everyone who took time to send me messages of encouragement. :o) :o)

And for anyone who didn't find the message (sorry), here it is....
Read from the first to last beginning letter of each sentence, vertically.


I hate always trying

W ords plunge off my lips and crumble before hitting the paper
A sking myself why I take this shit on a daily basis
N o one can understand this to its full extent
T oday I feel as though my pain has reached its maturity

T his is not what I bargained for
O ppression leading me by the hand

D ancing around the truth
I t just cant end like this
E ntire diatribes, but never read between the lines

I have done many other poems like this.....happier ones of course..

I know the feeling but it's so selfish as far as I personally feel. I talk about it, write about it, but I don't think I could ever do it. Don't feel stupid for sharing your feelings, please. We all get down. Right now I'm as down as I think I've ever been,except when I was married to my last husband, then I used to have visions of me killing myself. Now it's just the constant pain that makes me want to die, I just want the pain to end, not really my life