My mom and dad were married 65 years and one and 1/2 years ago she died suddenly. My dad has never recovered and shortly after lost his brother , best friend since he was 5 and 6 months ago on the phone the doctor`s office told him he had the start of dementia after an exam ON THE PHONE! I blasted them . He is on Aricept and I am experiencing a rollercoaster of depression, verbal abuse, rages, and blame for things I have not done. It seems to come and go. He is 90. and he is still DRIVING. I live with him and I get no help just threats from my sisters that I better not endanger his license. He has had 4 accidents this year. The doctors , insurance companies are doing nothing. I have no legal rights in my family. They treat me like a bug. I am trying to do my best and have a therapist and am trying to educate myself but I was getting very ill. I must make a life for myself. Am I a bad daughter? My father did a lot for me at one time but often this person is not my father. I miss him, I know this is an illness but I often take it personally. I am angry my sisters just call and deny everything and don`t want to hear anything. I need this roof over my head right now but I am working toward leaving. Everyone in my family will hate me when I do leave. I have tried my best and it`s never good enough. I read your posts and I know it won`t get better. I am doing my best .I don`t know how people survive this? I am so scared.
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