I used to post here bu during the last couple of months I have lost every friend, I am very sick mentally or phisically. I have thoughts of suicide and killing my father (no plan). My father has Dementia and my mom died 2 yrs ago after 60 some odd years and his disease allows him to rage at me every day . Yesterday he told me the stupidest thing he ever did was have me . Befoire that he told me no one would ever love. I don`t care if this is the disease. I have 2 sisters one in Arkansasn. Rich as you can imagine , just bought a 6 million dollar home and she won`t take him refuses to believe Deial. Her husband is a President of Walmart . I have another sister who lives 10 minutes away . She is never here. Both are married. My problem is I am so ill mentally and physically. I have chronic pain . I know what it is. I have no credit and I don`t think any apartment will take me.All My doctors say I have to go then my sisters one who is the executor will pick up the on what needs to be done. My dad is 92 and my sisters fixed it and he is driving. If I call motor vehicles then I have to drive himeverywhere. His doctord will not talk to me , my sisters fixed it that according to the hippa law they will not speak to me. I live in Delray Florida with my dog. I am getting to the point where I will do anything to get out. I am truly afraid I will end up a suicide. I feel they have made it that I can`t get out. The other day I told my Walmart Queen sister the executor who runs everything from Arkansas that I was going to find out my legal rights and she said she was going to call the police and get a lawyer and acuse me of abuse. I am so ill.I have to get out . I live inDelray Florida. Most apartments are very expensive and I won`t give up my dog. I have always been a good person and my sisters do not share with helping and they had promised. They are in total denial and don`t believe me. They are also ripping the house blind.. Please if you live anywhere near me and know a place to go shelters don`t take dogs.I was a flight attendant for 20 years and my mom furnished the whole house from Europe so we have so many priceless things . I know I will never see any of them . The will is in my sisters hands and I am not allowed tosee it.I have to go. I did go to one or 2 support groups. What in God`s name can I doto save myself. My sisters will most likely put my dad in assisted living after I go . They are using me. My meds are so expensive and I am on disability. I can`t seem to save. My father demands the money back on his credit card for medical expenses.I can`t do this anymore I am so sick. Please, please help me. I have lost hope. I am a shadow of who I was...Kontiki
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