I had a wonderful evening again last night. I'm starting to think that this guy could be the real thing. I'm still so gaurded though and I'll continue to be that way, but things are going so good. We had plans for him to come over and watch a movie after I got off work and he was finished with his bowling tournament. He had a ton of things to do today and he said he was saving the best for last. Awwww. He brought dinner over and he just sat and watched the movie. The whole time he will hold my hand and he'll kiss my hand, my fingers, my arm....it's just so sweet. After the movie we just laid there and talked about things. He told me that with me he doesn't have a wall up and he feels so comfortable with me. I told him that I do have a wall up but it has nothing to do with him...it's just because of the things that have happened in my past to make me cautious. He told me he understood and if I ever wanted to talk about any of that that he would always be there for me to talk about it. He would say the sweetest things...he would say that he loves just laying there with me in his arms, he told me that I have so much life in my eyes and all kinds of mushy stuff!!! He is spoiling the shit out of me with some of the nice things that he says!!!! But it still scares the shit out of me!!!! I can't handle being hurt again....but I can't help but think that this could be real!!!
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