Start with the positive:
I have had many miracles in my life--just being here is one. Having Lucy!!!
I have nice clothes, a nice house(needs some things fixed but very livable), cars to drive and in good repair.
We have food and money enough to get by(now have plenty of TP.)
I do still have a job and had a raise last month.
We can do laundry here at home which is good! The drains all work well and we have good water pressure.
The tomato plants are doing well and we have had good rains--which makes the grass grow(gotta get gas before I can do the yard again.
I don't have a real problem dealing with Mom's physical disabilities but her narcolepsy is so hard to cope with.
I know there are other good things in my life but right now I am having a hard time.
Now for the negative:
Mom's condition. It is very hard to deal with--right now she wants to leave--in one of her dream states where she wants to go away so I won't cry and can get some rest. Talking constantly. I had a melt down this morning which caused this. I am a bad person.
I do have a lot of physical pain in my neck and back. If I could just go back to the good chiro, I think it would be better.
Need quality sleep.
Want to go back to normal at work. 20 something takes over and treats me like I don't know much. Guess I resent or am jealous of her lack of worries.
I need help dealing with all this. Praying is all I know and there seems to be little change. However, I can see the little miracles! Like the milk I got the other day! But I need the miracle for MOM more than milk!!! Why???
I complain too much. Don't get house work done when I should or the yard done.
I need a mate to share my life with. Help me with things I can't do alone. Hug me.
This social isolation is killing me slowly, I think I am going crazy.
I am fortunate to be able to communicate.
I envy those with families and friends.
Today the weather is beautiful. Praying for a better tomorrow--for all of us.
Even though it is wrong to do---HUGS to you all!!!