I've been doing really well until yesterday when it hit me again. I can go days being pretty okay & then hit me like a ton of bricks my dad's gone & i can't just pick up the phone & call. Today is hard-i miss his fun laugh. That was the best laugh ever-he was SO funny. I feel like a piece of myself is gone when i cry-if this is what it feels like to lose someone close i don't think i can bear it again. Just the thought of my grandparents getting older is making me feel terrible if they leave us. Then i began to wonder why my dad being gone isn't really bothering my mother. I know they were divorced but they were friends since teenagers & grew up together & i've never seen her cry about this-she cries all the time about other things, but not him. Even though they weren't together anymore, don't you still miss that person? I don't understand that-i cry & she feels really bad for me & crys when she sees me crying,but i think she only cries for me, not herself. So here i am feeling alone like no one really understands me that's related to me. Why are they all taking this so well? I need to go-now i've started crying again.
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