Well, i had a great week-kept busy w/work & hardly had time to feel sad until yesterday when i saw a man walking down the street who looked & walked just like my dad & i began to cry. Then, last night i had several dreams about my dad that REALLY upset me today & i'm crying right now. One dream, i was at my grandmother's & was looking thru things of my dad's & crying. I put my face in my hands & felt my dad there & he said "You don't need to cry anymore-i was lost for a long time & didn't understand where i was - I fought it hard, but now & understand & am where i'm supposed to be & it's all okay. I'll always be here for you". I woke up & i wanted my dad back so bad-i really hurt today horribly. I don't want him to be dead & okay with it-i want him to come back. It's not right he was taken away so young. He lied-he said he would never die, & then one night went to sleep & never woke up. I have no idea why-there was no cause-that angers me. I'm angry & sad-i need the pain to stop, it's too much for me. He always said he'd be there for me & he isn't. Does anyone else feel this way?
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