I just lost my dad almost 2 weeks ago to a sudden massive heart attack. It came out of nowhere. I spent the last two weeks planning the funeral and trying to help my mom sort out her affairs. I visited with friends and family and ended up comforting them. Now that everyone has gone back home, I feel like I'm in a daze and can't stop crying. I miss him so much and I can't seem to make this pain subside. I keep trying to stay busy, rushing kids to school and activities. But everytime I sit down to take a breath the feeling swallows me whole. I just want him back so I can hug him and say I love you Dad. I can't stand this feeling. Is it bad to keep trying to stay busy and avoid these emotions? I feel like I just want to run down the street screaming to get away from them.
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