The anniversary of my fathers death just passed and I miss him so bad. People keep telling me that it has been 19 yrs I need to growup and forget about it. How can I forget about someone that was taking away from me too soon. I was only 5 when he CS. There is so much I miss about him. I remember the presents he would bring me when I was sick and how he would take me out to get my favorite ice cream cone. These are the days I missed the most. He was military he worked on a local air base and fixed the planes. He would sometimes even take me to work with him and would show me around all the different planes. I am hurting so bad inside and I can not talk to my mother or older sister because they want nothing more to do with him. I wish I could have him back so this hole in my heart can be fixed. But I know that will never happen. I feel lost without my father and feel bad that he never got to see his granddaughter and see me graduate high school get married and all the good things in life that he has missed. Although there wasn't much good in my life it was mostly very bad.
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