Well, this day has been a whirlwind. I start the day by hearing " You can let go Daddy" on the radio. I cryed through the entire song. I went to a garden this morning to work and found out my customers husband passed away unexpectedly 3 days ago. I have my first funeral to go to tomorrow since my Dad died. The service is in the same funeral home my Dads was. Then I get a call from a friend of ours out of state, we have been taking care of his 84 year old Aunt for 25 years. She lives near us. He decided to put her in assisted living here 2 weeks ago because she was falling and her demensia was getting worse. They called tonight. They put her in the hospital. She won't eat, she wants to die, and she has a UTI. Then later tonight was my nephews 10th birthday party. After the party, my mother took me aside to tell me her mother, my 99 year old grandmother, is not doing well. She has been in assisted living for about 2 years. She is not eating anymore and says its her time to go. She's probably right at 99. So, I'm wondering how my mother is going to get through this after her husband, my Dad, just passed away 6 months ago. Before my grandma went into assisted living, my grandma and mom were just about joined at the hip. This is going to be a serious blow for my mom. Its going to be a serious blow for this family. Its strange, I had a feeling this morning when I woke up at 4am and couldn't go back to sleep today was going to be a bummer. I told my husband I feel like I'm in some weird death cycle. All of a sudden, all around me people are dropping like flies. Its a good thing I have Xanax. Thanks for being here. Marge
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